Okay… so I’ve finally gotten to the place where I want to have a baby!! yes… I said it! Believe me, I’m shocked too! As the months progress I get even more excited wondering if we should just start trying now or wait! Before the thought of having a baby was followed by an immediate “HELL TO THE NAW” LOL!! I figured I had too much life to be living. Ain’t no baby gon’ tie me down!
Living Single
Now, of course pregnancy was a definite no-no before marriage. In fact I would go to any measure to not get pregnant! Except the measure of ABSTAINING…DUH Dani LOL!! I was not a hoe (let’s clarify THAT), BUT I wasn’t holy either! I remember the anxiety of my period being late. Wasting money on pregnancy tests that were always negative. One time I was so paranoid that I took a test in a McDonald’s bathroom. Thank God those days are over!
Newly Wed
Once I got married pregnancy still had a “STOP!!! Do NOT PASS GO!!! DO NOT COLLECT $200” sign. I would tell people “The hubby and I must have ‘our time'”. “We have to travel”, “We need to be more established first”, “People really shouldn’t have kids so quickly. I mean people don’t even stay married these days, and having a kid in the picture just makes the split harder… Not that we’d ever get divorced but…”. These are all GREAT reasons right? All valid points… Too bad I wasn’t being honest with myself! Really, I was very fearful. “You’re not whole! You can’t bring a baby into this world!”, “You’re not even a good wife. How can you be a good Mother?”, “You’re going to get FAT!”, “What if you can’t have children?”, “Kiss your career GOODBYE!”.
The Present
So, It’s been 3 years. Hubby and I are going strong and getting stronger. Have all my goals been met? Nope. Haven’t traveled a whole lot. I’m still trying to “get on” career wise. We are definitely not as established as we want to be, yet I feel like I’m ready to be a mommy… well that was a strong statement. Not ready, but ready for God to make me ready! LOL I mean what am I waiting for?? If anything a little Dani/Kel will enrich our lives, not stifle it! There is another side of me that I haven’t even met yet! A whole level of love that I haven’t tapped into. I’m excited to experience it all!
Am I still vain and superficial and worried about loosing my gorgeous figure… YES, but Alicia Key’s inspired me… I mean if she can look adorable, and fly, still perform, and climb on top of a freakin piano why can’t I?? Aren’t I a Super Woman too??
9 responses to “Super Woman”
qiananicolephotography
July 1st, 2010 at 21:21
LOL !!! Beautiful! One thing you said you wont realize how true it is until you cross over … The LOVE … you have NO IDEA the depth of LOVE that GOD put on the inside of you until GOD entrusts you with one of HIS little ones … (deep sigh and a big smile!) I still look at My babies (14yrs &4yrs ) and think I NEVER knew I could LOVE someone THIS much (indescribable) … and it let you know how much GOD trusts you and Loves you! Daily I still feel unworthy to have been given the honor twice !!!!!!! (Stephanie Mills – Never knew Love like this before)
and Yes , You are Superwoman too ; )
danispeakstruth
July 1st, 2010 at 21:48
Thanks so much Girl! I really am looking forward to experiencing all that motherhood has to offer! I have a niece (8) and a baby sister (11) and I love them SO much. I can only imagine how i’ll feel about my kiddies. I like what you said about God trusting youwith kids. That is so cool and so true! what an honor. It really does show His love for you.
ricianne
July 2nd, 2010 at 12:46
you’ll be a great mama! =]
taylor
July 2nd, 2010 at 16:21
danielle i truly enjoyed what i just read….You spoke for many women such as myself…the time has got to be right and you know when its that time because God will tell you!! I say go head and produce beautiful and talented babies and God will handle the rest….
danispeakstruth
July 12th, 2010 at 22:35
Thank you so much! He definitely will!
ilovemyhbcuexperience
July 6th, 2010 at 22:09
I love this blog, because I have the same thoughts. I just can’t believe that I am too the age where having a baby is not only okay but expected, now that I am married.
danispeakstruth
July 12th, 2010 at 22:35
Yeah girl… we old now! LOL
Ivonnah
July 12th, 2010 at 22:30
Oh gosh, this made me cry…You guys will be awesome parents.
danispeakstruth
July 12th, 2010 at 22:34
awwww hahaha! Thank so much Sis!