I learned something today…how to SHUT UP and pray! It is SO HARD!!! I really know how to go back and forth with people when they are saying something that I think is ludicrous.

God has been gracious enough to allow me to write the Small Group curriculum for our churches Small Group’s. Last weeks lesson was about finishing. I have been praying for God to give me another gig so I could leave this current gig I’m doing behind, but I heard God say “stop praying for me to take you out of the job. Pray for grace to finish it.” I felt so stupid when I heard Him say this. How do you write a lesson for others and never see that you’re doing the exact opposite of what you’re writing until later?? Hahahaha! I know I’m a constant source of amusement in heaven!!!

So anyway today at work they came up with another way to make performing almost unbearable. I do a show outside, and today the sun was directly behind me, BURNING my back (black people do get sun burn now days). This particular show had a meet and greet at the end so since my back was burning one of the other performers was nice enough to hold an umbrella over me as I signed autograph books and took pictures with the guests. Before the next Meet And Greet management comes to me and says that we cannot use the umbrella for shade. Nor can we move to the shade unless a choreographer comes and re-choreograph’s it. HUH????  Normally I would have went back and forth with them about how inconvenient this new “rule” is and how it was never choreographed in the first place, but God gave me the spirit of SHUT UP! I just listened and nodded.
I thought of all kinds of rebellious things I could do to make them give me my way! I thought about how this is one of the main reasons I HATE this gig! But I chose to pray and ask God to move the sun for me so that I could stand in shade. I realize this is not my battle to fight. This gig will be over soon and “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me” (Philippians 4:13). No matter how ridiculous it may seem! God told me to pray for GRACE to finish and that’s what I did!

When I walked outside the area that I stand in was completely covered with shade!!! HALELOOOOO!!!! It may seem like a small thing, but to me it is a testimony that if I just let go, God will take care of it all! He really does care about me!
Lord thank you for your GRACE!!!! Even through my tears and frustration with my current gig I feel His grace and I know He’ll carry me through. He’ll do the same for you. (hey… that rhymed) LOL

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